The Big Moment

Yarrr!

One thing that I've wanted to talk about here are mental health issues, but I can't seem to figure out how to tackle it.  Part of the reason is because I stopped taking my medication about a month ago.  It was hard at first, but I've been feeling a lot better.  I've been struggling with just getting things done, including writing.

So, right now I'm taking everything a day at a time, doing the minimum cleaning that needs to be done, feeding my family and playing with my kids.  It seems so stupid that even doing those things can be so hard, but for me they are.

I'm always waiting for a Big Moment where I'll suddenly be free of everything I need to do and motivated enough to sit down and make a plan for the future.  That will never happen.  I know I need to put everything aside and make my plan, but something is always holding me back.

I've lost my coherent train of thought again and am getting tired, so I guess that will be my note for now.  Maybe a wake up call to decide when my Big Moment will be, instead of waiting for it.

Baby Fever

I avoided thinking about the garden much today.

Wolf had a fever on Tuesday, but it went away.  We went to the park today and it returned, so he was cranky.  I had picked up more Tylenol on the way to the park, so we had it when we got home.  We also dropped Bendy Guy on the walk home and back tracked to find him.  We only had to go 2 blocks.  Its good exercise!

Bendy Guy

Wolf wouldn't have noticed, but I like Bendy Guy.

I've been really bad with my cleaning.  My goal tomorrow is to clean the bathroom.  I need to get my vinegar out of the car.  Then I'll go thru my cleaning list again for Zone Defense.  I did clean the car out!  Well, I threw the trash out, but I haven't brought anything in.  My trunk is full.

I've also decided to write more.  I'm not very good at this blogging thing, it ends up more like a diary.  So, maybe if I write more stuff for me then I can be better at this.  Who knows.